Kathleen Ligeski 2
Polaroid by Kathleen Ligeski

7/23/91

Hi Norman!

          I wouldn't figure out what to do this evening ... so I thought that I might say hello to you. :)

I hope you're fine and the rest of the family too.

Jaynell wrote a short note to me (about a month ago).  Yes, she told me.

And so, to cheer her up, I wrote her a letter about her two aunts :) ; it was an imaginary letter.  (Imaginary ? ? I thought that it had really happend, or would be happening! :) )  No, it was just imaginary, I guess .... :)

Dear Jaynell.  Norman I told her that she & I meet in our dreams, and that I miss her but that we meet in our dreams.

Norman I still ask myself why didn't I ever find a girlfriend... just don't know, didn't understand.  Life moves on and past.  Must have been waiting for true love.  My quietness? (and me? :(  :)  ).

Good things come to those who wait?  Be kind and gentle and you'll get your reward?  (Are you trying to say that true love is a reward?  Oh Brother! of all people why am I stuck with this Pete.)  Now wait a minute!)

Norman, why is it so hard to just exist?  Our social structure of making a profit on people's hunger or sickness, homelessness; just don't know.

Individuality seems so important to me.  Can't I get close to anyone?

Norman,
              and Wards?  What a wasted life I have there.  If I had ever cared about the company, it just doesn't exist now or ever again.    No longer think much of employers and I'd sooner avoid customers.

My search for creativity seems to be really a search for independence.  And what is independence?
              Do I
                     dance alone?

I keep waiting for the *right* set of inspiring circumstances...  (Just do it!)

But I have experienced the ideal (right) mindset / focus.  How did I lose it?  (Use it or lose it).  I spend so much time filtering Wards out of my life that I dive into my dreams for creativity (Ah HA!)

And Norman, that computer & printer I was going to give to my sister in Kentucky (the computer I had returned...)?  Well, that would have been a stupid thing to have given especially since I was trying to spend future money which I could not really, totally depend upon.  I know better.

Hey Pete  cheer up ! Loosen up !

Love couldn't be that fantastic !

Norman,
              Maybe I'm afraid of having too many ties to the Earth, Dear Earth.

Oh universe  I'll be there  out there one day  (and there's bound to be love out there too :); and when you're "asked" what your point of origin is ? Earth, Dear Earth.  And why
why
why are you out here now?  To exist.

the universe is a poem.
                      the Earth is but one line within.

                                 Norm,
                                            Take Care, :)

                                                      'til next time

                                                                    Pete

How is the orchard doing ?

7/24/91
           Norman,
                         All I seem to have is an abundance of hope. Is hope enough for this world? :)